si kaki kecek

satu kenyataan yang jujur; saya memang senang nak menyampah dgn org.

those driving without sense, memandu secara bahaya, saya anggap bodoh.
those talking bad about others' children, mengutuk kononnya anak dialah yang paling bagus, saya anggap bodoh.
mereka yang bercakap tanpa henti tentang betapa boringnya hidup mereka bekerja dengan bos yang bodoh, saya anggap bodoh.

dan banyak lagi.

saya memang senang nak panggil org bodoh.
tapi, ada satu sifat manusia bodoh ni, yang saya memang tak suka.

SUKA MENGECEK.

can't you just go buy food for yourself? perlu ke nak mintak2 mknan kat org? kita baru je masuk bilik, belum sempat nak duduk, kau dah fikir mcm mana nak mkn roti aku...

b o d o h.

vicious cycle

sometimes, the world seems unfair. macam tuhan tak sayang kat kita. nak bagi macam-macam dugaan. happiness, never. asyik-asyik sadness, gloominess.

when that happens, we go to a state of not wanting to believe anymore.

kita tak nak percaya tuhan itu maha mengasihani.
kita tak nak percaya orang berbuat baik dibalas baik.
kita tak nak percaya usaha itu tangga kejayaan.

dan macam-macam lagi fikiran negatif that keep coming to our head. poping their voice into our brain.



and suddenly, when good things started to happen, kita masih tidak mahu percaya. kita fikir ini semua akan dirampas balik oleh tuhan. all the nice cute little things that are happening, kita tahu ianya hanya buat sementara waktu sahaja.

tanpa kita sedar, kita tak bersyukur.

it is not our fault, being ungrateful, you see. kita hanya sudah biasa dengan sadness, gloominess. kita tak biasa dengan kegembiraan, dengan ketawa, dengan pelukan. jadi, kita tolak awal-awal semua perkara yang indah-indah itu.

semula, tanpa kita sedari, kita attract sadness, gloominess. and the cycle starts again. putaran tidak mahu mempercayai apa-apa lagi.

sedih. tuhan dah bagi depan mata. tapi, kita terlampau tenggelam dalam perasaan, kita tak nampak.



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alhamdulillah, saya dah berjaya buka mata besar-besar. dan, percaya atau tidak, semuanya kelihatan indah. ibu kucing marah anaknya pun saya nampak indah.

selamat hari raya!

peterpan sydrome

masalahnya dengan diri saya sekarang ialah, saya tak tahu nak bezakan realiti and fantasi.

i had lived for a long time, believing that this world is full of cakes, ice-blended coffee, starbucks specifically, with great ramen to indulge, and awesome music to listen to. also always-taste-great charkueytiaw, and great colourful lights along the road for people to not feel as if they are in a gloomy place.

tapi, sekarang, the truth is slowly settling in.

i cant have cakes all the time, i will be fat.
no more can i afford starbucks.
ichiban ramen is now really self-overrated.
music is hard to get nowadays.
charkueytiaw? hard to find a decent one in kl.
colourful lights are no longer colourful. they are just bright.


sedihkan? to not have those fantasies anymore... mcm kanak-kanak kena rampas bantal busuk.

and i am no longer a child. i HAD to grow up. i am not peterpan. i HAD to grow up.

rock n roll forever

Syukur, alhamdulillah, kepada tuhan sekalian alam, for making the day of my solemnization and reception indah. i am blessed, always, for having such a great family, such a great husband. thank u thank u thank u so much to all who had helped during those two days.

to the one whom i love so much i could die for, terima kasih. harap kita tua bersama-sama, sambil naik scrambler jalan-jalan kat bb.

harap kita kekal rock and roll walaupun dah tua!

waffle sedap

hidup sekarang banyak ketawa, banyak tersenyum, walaupun kadang-kadang ada benda bodoh yang tak signifikan pon, tapi tersangatlah annoying.

serius, saya banyak gelak, banyak ketawa sekarang ni. not that i was a damn gloomy person before. cuma, sekarang saya seperti tiada masalah. as if i am living in a world full of pink cotton-candy with a few here and there peanut butter and chocolate waffle. (kenapa nak kena mention makanan sebagai contoh kepada dunia tanpa masalah pon tak tahu)

mungkin sebab tiap-tiap hari tengok encik nasir yang kacak tu. dapat spend time dengan encik nasir sambil tengok giuliana and bill, tengok parenthood. boleh menyanyi dengan encik nasir lagu not nothing on you.

god, hidup saya sangatindah.

thank you so much for such a lovely husband.



saya nak mati dalam pelukan kamu boleh tak encik nasir?

rehat

sekarang, bukan masanya nak berfikiran rasional. bukan juga masanya untuk bertindak melulu.

now is the perfect time to not do anything.

kita tenangkan hati, tenangkan jiwa. berdoa minta pada tuhan supaya diberikan keamanan. supaya dunia ini semakin harmoni, semakin indah.

kita berehat sekejap dari perkara-perkara merepek, yang membazir, yang melalaikan.

we have got family, each of us. why don't we go back to our family, spent some quality time with our love ones, drinking some tea, eating some delicious home cooked meal, watching stupid comedy together?

instead of going to war?

is it really necessary to have these so-called war for peace, which is so ironic? is it really necessary? perlu ke? benar-benar perlu ke?


jadi, why don't we all go back to our family, spent some quality time with our love ones, drinking some tea, eating some delicious home cooked meal, watching stupid comedy together?

instead of going to war?



seriously, we all need some rest. dunia ni dah penuh dengan perkara-perkara meletihkan. nak gaduh bawak kereta atas jalanraya. nak gaduh nak naik elevator kat klcc. nak gaduh servis pelayan restoran lembap. nak gaduh sebab jiran sebelah ni lain bangsa.





pergilah tidur. mimpi tu akan bawa kita pergi jauh ke taman indah.
walaupun sekejap, but thank god for mimpi.